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oh, I miss the comfort of this house
where we are, where we are.
the floor under our feet whispers out,
“come on in, come on in, where it all begins.”we climbed up to the top in worn out shoes
but she ran down, she ran down.
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Happy to Go.
At the start of my first post-college job two summers ago, I jokingly made a bet with two close friends that I’d be the first to leave. It was very telling of my sentiment about my career in finance and reflected my desire to find a calling more true to myself; I thus entered into a trying wandering period where anxiety and ambition were my constant companions (read: every day I would freak out and ask, “GOD, WHAT AM I DOING WITH MY LIFE?”).
Fast forward two years and I’m at the wake of some manic but necessary changes. I left my job a couple weeks ago (yes, I won that silly bet!) and am spending my summer in Papua New Guinea learning from/shadowing the tribal missionaries and doctors that support them there. In the fall, I return to school as a post-bacc premed student.
If I may borrow a phrase my dear friend E shared with me… “If there is absolutely no way you can imagine being happy except _______, then _______. Otherwise, do something else.” It’s natural to reflect on how I got to filling in those blanks… but truth be told, I may very well still be chasing after that proverbial elusive green light after all is said and done. I’m not sure if this will work out for me, but I’ve got to at least show up and try.
There’s a lot that lies ahead of me; I know that. But if anything, I’m ready… I am so so ready. Thank God for that.
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(Source: Flickr / tylerknott, via thinknorth)
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Gratitude spurs me onward.
“I wish I could say that this perseverance came from some innate toughness in me. But the truth is, it was learned. I got it from watching the people who raised me.
I’m only here because of them. They may not have set out to change the world, but in small, important ways, they did. They certainly changed mine.”
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Bran thought about it. ‘Can a man still be brave if he’s afraid?’
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Healing.
(+ + + heal me)
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Angry, and half in love with her, and tremendously sorry, I turned away.
Gatsby
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:)
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serve God love me and mend
this is not the end
Love it will not betray you
dismay or enslave you, it will set you free
be more like the man you were made to be
(+ + + sigh no more, no more)
(credit to E for the photo)
